Territorial Voices

Something that seems to stump people who hear voices is that you just don't know where the voices are coming from. Science tells you that the voices are a chemical imbalance and that they are just inside your head, but in my case they read your every thought and comment on it, talking directly to you by something like "you..." or talk among themselves like saying something like "he/she...". In my case they don't quit it, and if I were to continue taking medication, which I feel would only sedate me meaning the drugs make me tired, then it might make me unaware of them.

Does this have something to do with using both hands? I'm ambidextrous and they seem to get louder and more menacing if I use my left hand like "he's sick..." or "he's crazy..." in a rather unsettling and joking manner, like having unseen pranksters intimidate you. Science tells you that it's a chemical imbalance in the brain and that the voices are just your brain doing strange things, but I don't completely buy that explanation, I think that there is MORE TO IT than that.

I'm also REPEATEDLY told to move to other locations and I perceive the voices to be extremely territorial. Sometimes I'm told to leave my city, the state, and at times to LEAVE THE COUNTRY ALL TOGETHER because according to the voices "I'm in Hell...". I also hear these messages not only from the air, but also from the television and the radio if I'm standing in hearing range, it's like scifi. I could give two cents about what I hear, but what is a person who is in my position going to do about hearing strange unsettling voices? The only available option that science gives is to take medication and why I'm I supposed to give in to that?

In the mean time I just continue to cope with it. It has been since 2007 since this has been happening to me and it's 2010 but I have read about people who have been going through this much longer. Imagine what it's like to constantly hear comments on your thoughts from something that you cannot see and that is the reality for people that are going through this.

In the mean time, I'll just continue to cope with it.

Another Interesting Site

I found this site which describes some of the symptoms schizophrenics suffer from. There is also a brain scan image which compares the brain a control individual versus that of one which has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. The image seems to show too much activity at the back of the brain compared with the rest. The site is below.

Source: http://www.scienceclarified.com/Ro-Sp/Schizophrenia.html

This other site also discusses some of the symptoms associated with schizophrenia, such as hearing voices and recurring thoughts. It should be mentioned that this also includes voices whose own thoughts are at their mercy (the voices comment on every thought that crosses the mind) or at least that's how it seems as well as strange noises that only the schizophrenic hears that trigger changes in the brain.

http://www.schizophrenia.com/family/delusions.html

Mufon Report

The following report I found posted in several websites, but I could not find the source. What strikes me about this post is that I can kind of relate to some of the experiences of this person. For one thing he mentions he could read people by making eye contact. I have avoided doing that too much because I used to get a negative response from voices. I also felt I was followed and I think it was because I was hearing voices at the time, but did not realize it; I would just assume strangers were insulting me, but it would be the same insults, so I assumed they were all in it together. Also, he mentions that he is attacked or something in dreams or when he is going to bed by things he can't see? I have had similar experiences. As of the date of this post, just yesterday at around 7:30 pm, several hours ago, I was having a nightmare and woke up from my sleep. As I awoke, I could hear voices talking to me, some sounded mean. In my waking hours I can hear voices talking, not too loud in the background.

I worked in a large 24 hour department store when I started hearing voices and worked the grave shift; started work close to midnight and got out of work in the morning. When you work in a department store and customers are mean to you, you just have to try and keep a straight face. Anyways, the report is below.

MUFON CMS - enroute on Amtrak - 9/8/2006 - unedited: I was enroute to work for the Department of Homeland Security Customs and Border Patrol Sept-2006 Past Customs ID 194485 Class number 626A Duty Station Piegan, Montana. I left NC enroute to my duty station in Piegan, Montana. My life was threatened on Amtrak Train in Charlotteville, Virginia. A black female wearing a pink suit said that I was going to die. I was just walking past her coming from the bathroom. I did not know this female. I moved to another area of the train. I called 911 and was told to get off at the next train station in Charleston, West Virginia. I got off the train in Charleston, West Virginia and called the police whom told me there was nothing that they could do. I was told to make contact with Amtrak Police. I had to find a hotel for the night. I could see hotels within sight from the Amtrak Station in Charleston,West Virginia. I was afraid to take a taxi for some reason and I begged the guy working at that station to take me to a hotel because he was getting ready to close the station. The Amtrak Guy would not help me. I even showed the guy my homeland security papers and he did not care. I left the station from the back of the building. I was carrying a pillow and blanket and a black bag. I had to cross the railroad tracks and then walk to the left. This is where my mind starts going sort of blank. I remember dropping my blanket and pillow on the tracks and then running. I was attempting to make it to a bridge within site so that I could get to a hotel. I was knocked out by something and the next thing I remember is walking from another bridge about 1 mile away. I was felt like I had been drugged or something. I felt like I was in shock. My clothes were still on and I still had my black bag. Something got me that I could not see. How did I get to another bridge 1 mile away from where I was at? I was on foot walking. The last people that I saw at the Amtrak Station before I left was the guy that worked there closing the station and a black guy getting in a taxi with some foreign guy driving. As a child I saw a red light in the sky on Easter. I use to turn around playing as a child like I could fly. As a child I use to love to lay outside at night and look at the stars. I have always known that a higher intelligence existed that sort of watched after all of us. Most of our technology comes from these beings that we cannot see. My intent to go and work for Customs was to track down human trafficking and look for missing persons. I have always known that aliens exist but I just dont talk about it. Before I was accepted into the Customs and Border Patrol Program I had a bad feeling that the East Coast was going to be hit by something. It was like I knew that something was coming. I could feel it! My plans in life were to get me and my two boys off the east coast. I wanted to move to Montana because I thought we would be safe there. I also wanted to go to the Montana area because whatever I am I knew there would be others like me. I can meet people and I either like them or not just by eye contact. Whatever this intelligence is that has came to our earth is like an energy force that can jump into a human and leave at will. You can tell when this occurs when someones eyes may change colors. I have seen these light things and they do not bother me. There is something else here on earth that is not good. I get really cold chills and have time lapses when these things are around. What ever these things are they can take you driving down the road. An example of what I am talking about is like when you drive somewhere and get to you're destination and you dont remember the trip. This time lapse thing began with me back in 1996 and 1997. May of this year I have had something that I cannot see bothering me when I am sleeping. These things can touch you! They seem to like to poke me allot to see if it hurts. Most of the time I aknowledge that whatever is there and I ask for it to go away. There are beings on this earth that are attempting to help us and there are also beings that would like to destroy humankind. These beings can jump in and out of the human body. This is my opinion about our current world-China is our biggest threat. The New World Order began in 2009. The power grid and banking systems will go down. It is important to hold on and hide as much cash as you can. Keep you car filled with gas and stockpile food, water and antibiotics. A sign to look for is when our military starts closing down military bases. When this occurs know that the time is near to get the heck off the east coast. I feel there is going to be Nuclear War. The only safe places to go are going to be the North West. I have been working for 4 years as a CNA. I work at a place called Cleveland Pines in Shelby, NC. I love my job but it is not what I was sent here for. I want to be on the border working in Montana. I am going to re-apply and try again. I found you're name on Jesse Ventura Conspiracy Theory. I think that you are doing great work! Sincerely, *(Wit's name and phone numbers deleted--CMS/sg) I do not have voice mail set up but I keep my phones with me at all times.

Source: Phantoms and Monsters.

A Site About Schizophrenia

I have been doing some searches for information about schizophrenia online and I have found one that goes by that name. The only problem though is that whenever I have tried to access it parts of the site have been down, especially the discussion forums. A couple of months ago I tried to access the site and I couldn't find it, not even in search engines. Things like this don't help for people who are trying to find answers.

People who hear voices are not perceived to be in their right minds honestly, at least from my experience. One of the most obnoxious things for me is whenever I have tried to tell my close relatives that strange voices talk to me as if they were people, I mean they have a mind of their own and say surprising things to me, they look at me with a concerned look and try to lecture me on how to rest more often and take my medications. I get frustrated because I hear strange things and you sometimes feel like talking back, but how can you, it's voices that you don't know where they're coming from? I also tend to hear voices speak in the second and third person and gives the impression the voices are talking to you or about you; that is a pattern many voice hearers attest to.

I started hearing voices when I worked for a particular employer in a large store. I was also working the grave shift. I once turned in a letter to make it more official that described to my manager that I was hearing voices full blast inside the store which to me sounded as if they originated from the speaker system. The guy was an a**h*le. Once when I was in the receiving area of the store and something that the managers did every morning, walk the store just around the time it was time for me to go home, he stood beside me and actually mumbled gibberish with his mouth closed as I was working.

It is really disheartening when adults act is such an immature manner. I think that is one of the things that has affected me the most, aside from hearing voices. When I first started hearing voices I assumed it was because of hidden cameras and hidden speakers in the environment, I mean, wouldn't that be the most obvious choice? And for the longest time I perceived the voices to be fake. I reasoned, because most of the voices I heard where of coworkers, that my employer was to blame. I also blamed technology, we are not living in the stone age after all. The link to the site is below.

http://schizophrenia.com/